Happy Birthday

Thinking of this precious one today.  Well, especially today.

He is a big five year old today!  We were almost certain that he would be home with us to celebrate this special day with him.  Honestly, my heart aches so very much today.  Every year on each one of my children's birthdays I custom make a banner just for them. I choose themes they are into for that year. I try to come up with new designs and colors they love and I write a special note, all by hand.  It gives me time to reflect on the past year and pray for them for the coming year. I look forward to it every time.  I had planned Claudy's banner and I think I may still make it today….could be therapeutic.  

To say we miss him seems such a teeny, tiny way to describe what we feel.  We need to come up with a new word for the longing.  Yes, we know God's timing is perfect and yes we know he will come home eventually, but that does not take away our sadness and frustration that he is not here. 

Happy Birthday sweet Claudy.  We love you and can't wait to bring you home.  Soon, son.  Soon.